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It's Victoria Secret Fashion Show season.

For a lot of girls that means it's "I regret the fact that I've only eaten junk and haven't been working out" season.

See the thing that really frustrates me with social media is that it has a specific way of capturing your attention and then deceiving your perception of reality. It has a way of saying, "if you were this way, or if you did this particular thing, your life would be so much easier." It makes us all insecure - no matter our size, shape or colour.

Don't get me wrong, I've totally been fooled by this. I scroll through my Instagram feed daily and all I see is this exact thing. This morning I was scrolling through and a particular picture of Bella Hadid came up and I stopped and thought "I bet if I was as skinny as her, I probably might have it a bit easier." I wanted to slap myself. (Editing Sarahs note: just remember even the people we see on social media aren't perfect - they struggle with just as much stuff as we do.)

See, as someone growing up being bullied because of my weight and the way I looked, it was so easy to find myself wishing I was those models I would see on Instagram or on the TV shows I would watch. I would try take selfies of myself where my body would actually look skinner than it did. I would try multiple diets and sometimes I would skip meals because I thought that the less food I consumed, the less I would weigh. Sometimes the people that would bully me the most would be some of my closest friends and during high school, that made me think that just because I looked a certain way - people just wouldn't love me.

That reigned true when it came to relationships as well. In high school I constantly liked boys that didn't like me back - and I blamed it all on the size of my body. I thought that just because I wasn't as 'hot' or pretty as other girls, a guy would never love me. When my current boyfriend came into my life (my first - and hopefully my last boyfriend!) he made me feel so beautiful. He would constantly remind me that I was the most gorgeous girl he had ever laid his eyes on - not just because of the way I looked, but because of my soul as well. He'll kiss my forehead and remind me that I'm beautiful in my own wonderful way and that yes, I am capable of being loved.



And folks, that's exactly how God sees us.
We are His beautiful creation and I felt as if God wanted me to write this post because there are so many people reading this that don't realise their worth. So many people who compare themselves to supermodels or famous gym junkies. So many people who forget that man looks at the outward appearance, but God looks at the heart.

Isn't it crazy to think that God looked down at the world and thought that the one thing missing, was you? He thought the world just needed a person like you. He didn't create you to compare yourself to others just because they have nicer hair, a hotter body, straighter teeth. Guys, all I can imagine when we compare ourselves to others, is God just weeping. Weeping because to Him, you're such a beautiful work of art. Weeping because He blessed you with so many gifts and talents and yet all that matters is the fact you don't think you're perfect. Weeping because to Him, you are so perfect.

Image is everything to everyone these days. Of course there's nothing wrong about wanting to look nice and feeling confident with who you are but the message I need you guys to hear today is that what's the point of having a pretty exterior with a dreadful interior? I'm talking about the people that are drop dead gorgeous but as soon as they speak it's just toxic. And I don't mean their breath smells bad - I mean that their thoughts and their actions and their views on things. Okay now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you have to be perfect. We all think bad things and yeah our views on things aren't always going to be the same as someone else's. But once we start pushing the garbage out of our lives - the more beautiful we become.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewellery or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
1 Peter 3:3-4

If you're to get anything out of this post today, please let it be this;

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. God created you in His image and I don't know about you, but being made in the image of God? That's pretty epic. He gifted you with gifts and talents and He loves you so much, He continues to bless you no matter what you've done or how far you've drifted. He loves you for you. He looks at you and He is in awe of you, His dearest child. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and folks - God makes no mistakes. YOU HAVE A REASON AND YOU HAVE A PURPOSE. Don't let models on Instagram or the guy that gets all the girls in your favourite movie take you away from the fact that you were brought onto this earth for a reason. You are the way you are for a reason. And yes it's fine to diet and work out - don't get me wrong. But look to being a better version of you - don't try be someone you're not. Comparison is the devil - know your worth. Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but the Lord is perfect. 

You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.
Song of Songs 4:7

Until next time X



MAYBE IT WOULD BE EASIER IF I WAS SKINNIER

Thursday, 23 November 2017



It's Victoria Secret Fashion Show season.

For a lot of girls that means it's "I regret the fact that I've only eaten junk and haven't been working out" season.

See the thing that really frustrates me with social media is that it has a specific way of capturing your attention and then deceiving your perception of reality. It has a way of saying, "if you were this way, or if you did this particular thing, your life would be so much easier." It makes us all insecure - no matter our size, shape or colour.

Don't get me wrong, I've totally been fooled by this. I scroll through my Instagram feed daily and all I see is this exact thing. This morning I was scrolling through and a particular picture of Bella Hadid came up and I stopped and thought "I bet if I was as skinny as her, I probably might have it a bit easier." I wanted to slap myself. (Editing Sarahs note: just remember even the people we see on social media aren't perfect - they struggle with just as much stuff as we do.)

See, as someone growing up being bullied because of my weight and the way I looked, it was so easy to find myself wishing I was those models I would see on Instagram or on the TV shows I would watch. I would try take selfies of myself where my body would actually look skinner than it did. I would try multiple diets and sometimes I would skip meals because I thought that the less food I consumed, the less I would weigh. Sometimes the people that would bully me the most would be some of my closest friends and during high school, that made me think that just because I looked a certain way - people just wouldn't love me.

That reigned true when it came to relationships as well. In high school I constantly liked boys that didn't like me back - and I blamed it all on the size of my body. I thought that just because I wasn't as 'hot' or pretty as other girls, a guy would never love me. When my current boyfriend came into my life (my first - and hopefully my last boyfriend!) he made me feel so beautiful. He would constantly remind me that I was the most gorgeous girl he had ever laid his eyes on - not just because of the way I looked, but because of my soul as well. He'll kiss my forehead and remind me that I'm beautiful in my own wonderful way and that yes, I am capable of being loved.



And folks, that's exactly how God sees us.
We are His beautiful creation and I felt as if God wanted me to write this post because there are so many people reading this that don't realise their worth. So many people who compare themselves to supermodels or famous gym junkies. So many people who forget that man looks at the outward appearance, but God looks at the heart.

Isn't it crazy to think that God looked down at the world and thought that the one thing missing, was you? He thought the world just needed a person like you. He didn't create you to compare yourself to others just because they have nicer hair, a hotter body, straighter teeth. Guys, all I can imagine when we compare ourselves to others, is God just weeping. Weeping because to Him, you're such a beautiful work of art. Weeping because He blessed you with so many gifts and talents and yet all that matters is the fact you don't think you're perfect. Weeping because to Him, you are so perfect.

Image is everything to everyone these days. Of course there's nothing wrong about wanting to look nice and feeling confident with who you are but the message I need you guys to hear today is that what's the point of having a pretty exterior with a dreadful interior? I'm talking about the people that are drop dead gorgeous but as soon as they speak it's just toxic. And I don't mean their breath smells bad - I mean that their thoughts and their actions and their views on things. Okay now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying you have to be perfect. We all think bad things and yeah our views on things aren't always going to be the same as someone else's. But once we start pushing the garbage out of our lives - the more beautiful we become.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewellery or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
1 Peter 3:3-4

If you're to get anything out of this post today, please let it be this;

YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. God created you in His image and I don't know about you, but being made in the image of God? That's pretty epic. He gifted you with gifts and talents and He loves you so much, He continues to bless you no matter what you've done or how far you've drifted. He loves you for you. He looks at you and He is in awe of you, His dearest child. You are fearfully and wonderfully made, and folks - God makes no mistakes. YOU HAVE A REASON AND YOU HAVE A PURPOSE. Don't let models on Instagram or the guy that gets all the girls in your favourite movie take you away from the fact that you were brought onto this earth for a reason. You are the way you are for a reason. And yes it's fine to diet and work out - don't get me wrong. But look to being a better version of you - don't try be someone you're not. Comparison is the devil - know your worth. Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting, but the Lord is perfect. 

You are altogether beautiful, my darling; there is no flaw in you.
Song of Songs 4:7

Until next time X





For the first time in 13, almost 14 years - your girl finally left New Zealand.

Hopping on that plane was full of a lot of nerves and emotions. For someone who's only been on a plane once since coming to NZ when she was 5, she was so nervous, she was actually calm. Thankfully one of my friends I was going with was in the same boat as me so it made the experience a lot better.

They flight was only 3 hours (which is your average roadie) but I was so incredibly bored. Of course I was the only person who had nothing to do. I thought many times of writing a blog post but I was nervous of people around me seeing what I was writing - stupid isn't it?

Anyways, we got to Sydney and at first it really didn't feel like I was in a different country at all. The hustle and bustle of Parramatta felt exactly the same as being in the centre of Auckland city. The people were incredibly friendly and the food was just as good.

It really only started to sink in as I was going to be last night when I was on a call with my boyfriend. "It feels like you're just at a friends house... just in another country." It was strange to hear that. Being in another country was such a surreal feeling (even though Australia isn't that far from NZ but anyways) and I was nervous but so excited. I mean Australia is full of bugs, snakes, and boys that don't know limits but God had placed a certain peace over my heart and I was suddenly not as scared anymore.

Leaving the people I loved most, knowing I can't just run to them when something went wrong, was slightly terrifying. I was so far and it was lonely. But God brought me to Australia for a reason and He will never give me anything I can't handle.

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
1 Peter 1:7

So friends, don't be a slave to fear. Remember that God is always there right beside you, guiding you. He will never give you something you can't handle.

So with that being said, Hillsong conference, I'm coming for ya 💥

Until next time X

I WOKE UP IN SYDNEY

Wednesday, 15 November 2017



For the first time in 13, almost 14 years - your girl finally left New Zealand.

Hopping on that plane was full of a lot of nerves and emotions. For someone who's only been on a plane once since coming to NZ when she was 5, she was so nervous, she was actually calm. Thankfully one of my friends I was going with was in the same boat as me so it made the experience a lot better.

They flight was only 3 hours (which is your average roadie) but I was so incredibly bored. Of course I was the only person who had nothing to do. I thought many times of writing a blog post but I was nervous of people around me seeing what I was writing - stupid isn't it?

Anyways, we got to Sydney and at first it really didn't feel like I was in a different country at all. The hustle and bustle of Parramatta felt exactly the same as being in the centre of Auckland city. The people were incredibly friendly and the food was just as good.

It really only started to sink in as I was going to be last night when I was on a call with my boyfriend. "It feels like you're just at a friends house... just in another country." It was strange to hear that. Being in another country was such a surreal feeling (even though Australia isn't that far from NZ but anyways) and I was nervous but so excited. I mean Australia is full of bugs, snakes, and boys that don't know limits but God had placed a certain peace over my heart and I was suddenly not as scared anymore.

Leaving the people I loved most, knowing I can't just run to them when something went wrong, was slightly terrifying. I was so far and it was lonely. But God brought me to Australia for a reason and He will never give me anything I can't handle.

Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
1 Peter 1:7

So friends, don't be a slave to fear. Remember that God is always there right beside you, guiding you. He will never give you something you can't handle.

So with that being said, Hillsong conference, I'm coming for ya 💥

Until next time X

I love lists, challenges, and taking care of yourself - so this post made total sense to write.

I've had my fair share of self care challenges, and I'm not expert, but I thought I'd share with you what I've learnt. Don't worry, this post won't be like my 2 part "Ways To Have A Great Year" posts (link here and here) but this post will be a little more simple because I believe that we all need to give ourselves a break and just slow down. It's so easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of our daily lives, we forget to look after ourselves in the process. I'm still learning, but here's a couple tips I've learnt that have really helped me.


DAY 1: SET ASIDE TIME FOR YOU

Whether that be a little 10 minute session or a full 2 hours, just do what you want to do. Take time to hang out by yourself. I understand that some days are so full of activities, but I believe that if we all try hard enough, we'll find some time to ourselves.

DAY 2: TAKE A BATH

Guys! There is beauty in bathing (as weird as that sounds). Just being able to relax while still getting clean (hello, hitting two birds with one stone, am I right?!) I understand not everyone has access to a bath, but if you do, I highly recommend chucking a bath bomb, dimming the lights and just relaxing.

DAY 3: NETFLIX 

.... and most definitely chill. Chuck on your favourite tv show and just bask in the hilarity or seriousness of your favourite tv show/movie. Appreciate how long it must've taken the directors to film and edit it, and how long the actors took to learn their lines and rehearse and film the scenes. Take into account the wardrobe people, lighting and sound people, hair and makeup, graphics, and the list goes on. Remind yourself that nothing happens overnight, and all good things take time.

DAY 4: CLEAN YOUR ROOM

I cleaned my room this morning and the vibes were way better. I fully understand the "it's messy but I know where everything is" statement, but a clean room will equal a clean mind - you'll thank me later.

DAY 5: MAKE A LIST OF YOUR FAVOURITE THINGS

If you're anything like me, you have a lot of favourites, and it's so easy to lose track! When someone asks me my favourite anything, my palms get sweaty... knees weak.... arms spaghetti....
ANYWAYS - reminding yourself what you like and why it's on your favourites list is such a refreshing thing to do. Take a moment and write down every category you can think of. From favourite colour to favourite cleaning product, write down what it is and why.

DAY 6: GO FOR A WALK/RUN

I LOVE NATURE - and I seriously wish I spent more time in it. Going for a walk/run really gives me an excuse to just walk around and thank God for everything He's blessed me with - which includes nature. We forget that God put so much thought into each and every detail, even the tiniest ones - and the same goes for us. He put so much thought into each and every one of us, don't give up.

DAY 7: PLAN AN EVENT

It really doesn't have to be huge, but also it can be. Whether it be a huge worship night where it's open to the public, or a small games night where only close friends come, God will be there. Because where 2 or 3 are gathered in one place, God is there. Thank Him for being there and also thank Him for all the people you're surrounded by at that time. Remember that we can't go through life alone.

DAY 8: TEXT AN OLD FRIEND

Something about reunions is so heart warming. The thing about this tip that works for me, is the fact that you'll most likely to have heaps to talk about and catch up on. Maybe they'll remind you of something you may have forgotten about yourself, or maybe they'll help you realise that you're so happy you're not the person you used to be. Give it a shot - see what they can show you.

DAY 9: DRINK LOTS OF WATER

Don't argue with me on this - you know it's good for you.

DAY 10: TELL SOMEONE YOU APPRECIATE THEM

It's so easy to take people for granted. Remind someone that they mean a lot to you and that they things they do for you, big or small, have made some sort of difference in your life. I promise it will make their day.

DAY 11: WATCH YOUR FAVOURITE CHILDHOOD MOVIE

and laugh like you're 5 again. I'm a huge advocate of never letting go of your childhood self. Remember that growing up starts when you're born, not when you're 21. Don't rush yourself - there's still time.

DAY 12: DECLUTTER 

I'm a hoarder, not gonna lie. But the day I finally forced myself to get rid of some things, I felt so good. Sure it took a lot out of me to give up the notes my friends and I would secretly pass around during class in year 4, but at the same time, it was nice to not be holding on to stuff that clearly doesn't matter now. Sure, it's totally fine to be sentimental - but some things just need to be done. Go through your entire room, bit by bit - I believe in you.

DAY 13: PLAN YOUR DREAM VACATION

and how you're gonna get there. Start saving now - it's so beautiful seeing a dream come to life. It might take years, but you'll thank yourself later.

DAY 14: SOCIAL MEDIA DECLUTTER 

Unfollow the negative, remove followers you no longer trust, delete posts you're no longer happy with and don't resonate with you anymore. Do that with all your social medias and you'll find you won't get so lost in all the notifications.

DAY 15: NO COMPLAINT DAY

Now this one is hard. I don't think I know anyone that's gone through a day without complaining at least about the smallest thing like maybe terrible traffic, a broken nail, etc etc. Try looking for the positive things in your day rather than the negative. Remember to praise God in any situation.

DAY 16: RETAIL THERAPY

I have a major shopping addiction, but I've also found that shopping really takes my mind off of things. Go treat yourself! You might not always get the chance, so grab it while it's on sale ;)

DAY 17: GO TO BED EARLY

Get the best sleep you've ever had! Sleep is so important to keep your body functioning.

DAY 18: WRITE 10 THINGS YOU LOVE ABOUT YOU

Yes, another list. But for real! Sit down and take the time to write down what's so great about you. No this is not vain at all and you might feel more confident if you start to love what you might not love so much right now. Remind yourself you were crafted by the best artist I've ever known.

DAY 19: RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS

Pay for the person's order behind you at a drive through, pick up some rubbish you see on your daily walk, send an encouraging message to someone you know is going through a hard time. You don't have to be in the spotlight 24/7 - sometimes the best work we do, is the work that goes unrecognised.

and finally....

DAY 20: WRITE A LETTER TO YOUR FUTURE SELF

Write down what's going on in your life. Tell them how this challenge has gone for you. Remind them that no matter what life's thrown in their face, that they've made it thus far and they're strong enough to carry on - because remember, it doesn't matter how many people believe in you, if you don't believe in you, then what's the point? If you're standing still, you're moving backwards. Keep going.

So there you have it! If you made it to the end, comment "I believe in me" in the comments. Conquer this challenge guys! I'll be doing it right there with you. And don't worry, you can start and stop at any time you like and there's also no time limit. If anything, do this because you want to - I can't force anything upon you. If you have any questions or problems, feel free to message me!

Until next time X

20 DAY SELF CARE CHALLENGE

Saturday, 11 November 2017


I love lists, challenges, and taking care of yourself - so this post made total sense to write.

I've had my fair share of self care challenges, and I'm not expert, but I thought I'd share with you what I've learnt. Don't worry, this post won't be like my 2 part "Ways To Have A Great Year" posts (link here and here) but this post will be a little more simple because I believe that we all need to give ourselves a break and just slow down. It's so easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of our daily lives, we forget to look after ourselves in the process. I'm still learning, but here's a couple tips I've learnt that have really helped me.


DAY 1: SET ASIDE TIME FOR YOU

Whether that be a little 10 minute session or a full 2 hours, just do what you want to do. Take time to hang out by yourself. I understand that some days are so full of activities, but I believe that if we all try hard enough, we'll find some time to ourselves.

DAY 2: TAKE A BATH

Guys! There is beauty in bathing (as weird as that sounds). Just being able to relax while still getting clean (hello, hitting two birds with one stone, am I right?!) I understand not everyone has access to a bath, but if you do, I highly recommend chucking a bath bomb, dimming the lights and just relaxing.

DAY 3: NETFLIX 

.... and most definitely chill. Chuck on your favourite tv show and just bask in the hilarity or seriousness of your favourite tv show/movie. Appreciate how long it must've taken the directors to film and edit it, and how long the actors took to learn their lines and rehearse and film the scenes. Take into account the wardrobe people, lighting and sound people, hair and makeup, graphics, and the list goes on. Remind yourself that nothing happens overnight, and all good things take time.

DAY 4: CLEAN YOUR ROOM

I cleaned my room this morning and the vibes were way better. I fully understand the "it's messy but I know where everything is" statement, but a clean room will equal a clean mind - you'll thank me later.

DAY 5: MAKE A LIST OF YOUR FAVOURITE THINGS

If you're anything like me, you have a lot of favourites, and it's so easy to lose track! When someone asks me my favourite anything, my palms get sweaty... knees weak.... arms spaghetti....
ANYWAYS - reminding yourself what you like and why it's on your favourites list is such a refreshing thing to do. Take a moment and write down every category you can think of. From favourite colour to favourite cleaning product, write down what it is and why.

DAY 6: GO FOR A WALK/RUN

I LOVE NATURE - and I seriously wish I spent more time in it. Going for a walk/run really gives me an excuse to just walk around and thank God for everything He's blessed me with - which includes nature. We forget that God put so much thought into each and every detail, even the tiniest ones - and the same goes for us. He put so much thought into each and every one of us, don't give up.

DAY 7: PLAN AN EVENT

It really doesn't have to be huge, but also it can be. Whether it be a huge worship night where it's open to the public, or a small games night where only close friends come, God will be there. Because where 2 or 3 are gathered in one place, God is there. Thank Him for being there and also thank Him for all the people you're surrounded by at that time. Remember that we can't go through life alone.

DAY 8: TEXT AN OLD FRIEND

Something about reunions is so heart warming. The thing about this tip that works for me, is the fact that you'll most likely to have heaps to talk about and catch up on. Maybe they'll remind you of something you may have forgotten about yourself, or maybe they'll help you realise that you're so happy you're not the person you used to be. Give it a shot - see what they can show you.

DAY 9: DRINK LOTS OF WATER

Don't argue with me on this - you know it's good for you.

DAY 10: TELL SOMEONE YOU APPRECIATE THEM

It's so easy to take people for granted. Remind someone that they mean a lot to you and that they things they do for you, big or small, have made some sort of difference in your life. I promise it will make their day.

DAY 11: WATCH YOUR FAVOURITE CHILDHOOD MOVIE

and laugh like you're 5 again. I'm a huge advocate of never letting go of your childhood self. Remember that growing up starts when you're born, not when you're 21. Don't rush yourself - there's still time.

DAY 12: DECLUTTER 

I'm a hoarder, not gonna lie. But the day I finally forced myself to get rid of some things, I felt so good. Sure it took a lot out of me to give up the notes my friends and I would secretly pass around during class in year 4, but at the same time, it was nice to not be holding on to stuff that clearly doesn't matter now. Sure, it's totally fine to be sentimental - but some things just need to be done. Go through your entire room, bit by bit - I believe in you.

DAY 13: PLAN YOUR DREAM VACATION

and how you're gonna get there. Start saving now - it's so beautiful seeing a dream come to life. It might take years, but you'll thank yourself later.

DAY 14: SOCIAL MEDIA DECLUTTER 

Unfollow the negative, remove followers you no longer trust, delete posts you're no longer happy with and don't resonate with you anymore. Do that with all your social medias and you'll find you won't get so lost in all the notifications.

DAY 15: NO COMPLAINT DAY

Now this one is hard. I don't think I know anyone that's gone through a day without complaining at least about the smallest thing like maybe terrible traffic, a broken nail, etc etc. Try looking for the positive things in your day rather than the negative. Remember to praise God in any situation.

DAY 16: RETAIL THERAPY

I have a major shopping addiction, but I've also found that shopping really takes my mind off of things. Go treat yourself! You might not always get the chance, so grab it while it's on sale ;)

DAY 17: GO TO BED EARLY

Get the best sleep you've ever had! Sleep is so important to keep your body functioning.

DAY 18: WRITE 10 THINGS YOU LOVE ABOUT YOU

Yes, another list. But for real! Sit down and take the time to write down what's so great about you. No this is not vain at all and you might feel more confident if you start to love what you might not love so much right now. Remind yourself you were crafted by the best artist I've ever known.

DAY 19: RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS

Pay for the person's order behind you at a drive through, pick up some rubbish you see on your daily walk, send an encouraging message to someone you know is going through a hard time. You don't have to be in the spotlight 24/7 - sometimes the best work we do, is the work that goes unrecognised.

and finally....

DAY 20: WRITE A LETTER TO YOUR FUTURE SELF

Write down what's going on in your life. Tell them how this challenge has gone for you. Remind them that no matter what life's thrown in their face, that they've made it thus far and they're strong enough to carry on - because remember, it doesn't matter how many people believe in you, if you don't believe in you, then what's the point? If you're standing still, you're moving backwards. Keep going.

So there you have it! If you made it to the end, comment "I believe in me" in the comments. Conquer this challenge guys! I'll be doing it right there with you. And don't worry, you can start and stop at any time you like and there's also no time limit. If anything, do this because you want to - I can't force anything upon you. If you have any questions or problems, feel free to message me!

Until next time X


Have you ever woken up on your rostered work day and just didn't want to go? You start trying to think of excuses so you can call in sick and sleep for the rest of the day because that sounds way better than whatever workplace you were meant to be at. You try and remind yourself that without working, there would be no source of income, which meant you wouldn't be able to buy food, which meant you would starve... and suddenly you find yourself out of bed and ready for the day ahead.

It's almost been a year since my internship started, and it's been the craziest year of my life.

I had plenty of days when I would wake up for an early morning band practise and just not want to go. Truthfully, I just couldn't be bothered. I went through an awful stage where I honestly thought that they didn't even need my help and it'd be absolutely fine if I didn't go, right?

Wrong.

See the thing that I failed to see was that it had nothing to do with how well I could sing or what my musical knowledge was like. I mean, of course, that definitely comes into play when you're a worship intern but it's not what it was all about. I was so blinded to the fact that my mere presence just made some of the kids days.

Sometimes we are so caught up in our own busy, hectic lives that we sometimes start to make decisions solely based on how we feel. We're so immersed in being the main character of the book - we don't realise how many other characters we've impacted throughout the story.

There are no limits when it comes to impact. Big or small, no matter what we do, it always has some sort of effect on the people around you. Maybe it's things you've said, how you've encouraged, the way you smile when they walk in the room, the physical gestures such as hugs, handshakes etc. Everything comes in to play. Some people might not ever hear the encouragement you give them. Maybe the smile you gave that one person just really made their morning. You never know how the simplest thing could really improve someone's day.

I learnt all this last Friday at my final school assembly. The night before, I had only finished work at 11:30pm and I was completely and utterly, shattered. After sleeping through all 4 of my alarms the next morning, I was running extremely late. I started panicking because something in me told me that this was an assembly I could not forget - and thank goodness I didn't miss it.

Not only was it the best assembly we've had all year, but when I walked into the room, one of my students who was also my friend, saw me, screamed my name, and ran from the stage to the back of the room. I couldn't figure out why she was so excited to see me, but as she gave me a huge hug, she said something that I'll never forget;

"I prayed for you to be here."

GUYS. I mean come on!! 

That moment wasn't a pride thing at all. To me, that felt as if God was using this student who hasn't had a very easy year, to tell me, 'hey, look what you did in this girl's life. You might've felt like you were inadequate and felt like you haven't done anything but this is what I called you for.' 

I've always told my year 12's to be careful with the words you say and the things you do because you never know how much it could impact someone else. And I'm going to repeat it to you now because you could just be that person to make or break someone's day. 

See in all the little moments throughout the year with all my students, but especially this girl, I thought nothing of it. And that's just how God works sometimes. He uses you in ways you don't even realise until you've reached the very end and trust me guys, although I may have struggled to get out of bed after a long night the night before, it was totally worth it. 

So to wrap up, the biggest lesson I've learnt this year is this;

It's never about you. Don't be so consumed in your own life, that you totally miss what God is asking you to do. Honestly - there were other times that I could've (and should've!) been with that student and I 100% regret it. Don't get so caught up in what you're doing that you miss the opportunities you asked God for. Another thing I've learnt is that you might think you're called to one thing - and He shows you what He really called you for. Wait for His confirmation. Trust me, it'll be something you'll never ever forget.

So guys, I pray for you to be there. I pray for you to be wherever the heck God calls you to be, and to be there with your whole heart. And if you ever do wake up in the morning really not feeling like doing anything, just remember this little equation; 

Not showing up = God can't use you = Lost opportunities 

Until next time X


I PRAYED FOR YOU TO BE HERE

Sunday, 5 November 2017


Have you ever woken up on your rostered work day and just didn't want to go? You start trying to think of excuses so you can call in sick and sleep for the rest of the day because that sounds way better than whatever workplace you were meant to be at. You try and remind yourself that without working, there would be no source of income, which meant you wouldn't be able to buy food, which meant you would starve... and suddenly you find yourself out of bed and ready for the day ahead.

It's almost been a year since my internship started, and it's been the craziest year of my life.

I had plenty of days when I would wake up for an early morning band practise and just not want to go. Truthfully, I just couldn't be bothered. I went through an awful stage where I honestly thought that they didn't even need my help and it'd be absolutely fine if I didn't go, right?

Wrong.

See the thing that I failed to see was that it had nothing to do with how well I could sing or what my musical knowledge was like. I mean, of course, that definitely comes into play when you're a worship intern but it's not what it was all about. I was so blinded to the fact that my mere presence just made some of the kids days.

Sometimes we are so caught up in our own busy, hectic lives that we sometimes start to make decisions solely based on how we feel. We're so immersed in being the main character of the book - we don't realise how many other characters we've impacted throughout the story.

There are no limits when it comes to impact. Big or small, no matter what we do, it always has some sort of effect on the people around you. Maybe it's things you've said, how you've encouraged, the way you smile when they walk in the room, the physical gestures such as hugs, handshakes etc. Everything comes in to play. Some people might not ever hear the encouragement you give them. Maybe the smile you gave that one person just really made their morning. You never know how the simplest thing could really improve someone's day.

I learnt all this last Friday at my final school assembly. The night before, I had only finished work at 11:30pm and I was completely and utterly, shattered. After sleeping through all 4 of my alarms the next morning, I was running extremely late. I started panicking because something in me told me that this was an assembly I could not forget - and thank goodness I didn't miss it.

Not only was it the best assembly we've had all year, but when I walked into the room, one of my students who was also my friend, saw me, screamed my name, and ran from the stage to the back of the room. I couldn't figure out why she was so excited to see me, but as she gave me a huge hug, she said something that I'll never forget;

"I prayed for you to be here."

GUYS. I mean come on!! 

That moment wasn't a pride thing at all. To me, that felt as if God was using this student who hasn't had a very easy year, to tell me, 'hey, look what you did in this girl's life. You might've felt like you were inadequate and felt like you haven't done anything but this is what I called you for.' 

I've always told my year 12's to be careful with the words you say and the things you do because you never know how much it could impact someone else. And I'm going to repeat it to you now because you could just be that person to make or break someone's day. 

See in all the little moments throughout the year with all my students, but especially this girl, I thought nothing of it. And that's just how God works sometimes. He uses you in ways you don't even realise until you've reached the very end and trust me guys, although I may have struggled to get out of bed after a long night the night before, it was totally worth it. 

So to wrap up, the biggest lesson I've learnt this year is this;

It's never about you. Don't be so consumed in your own life, that you totally miss what God is asking you to do. Honestly - there were other times that I could've (and should've!) been with that student and I 100% regret it. Don't get so caught up in what you're doing that you miss the opportunities you asked God for. Another thing I've learnt is that you might think you're called to one thing - and He shows you what He really called you for. Wait for His confirmation. Trust me, it'll be something you'll never ever forget.

So guys, I pray for you to be there. I pray for you to be wherever the heck God calls you to be, and to be there with your whole heart. And if you ever do wake up in the morning really not feeling like doing anything, just remember this little equation; 

Not showing up = God can't use you = Lost opportunities 

Until next time X


from a girl who's never needed God more


If you've been keeping up with my blog at all (slightly my fault, I haven't been updating), you would know that the past few months have been a little tough. It's been a whirlwind of emotions and not really being confident in who I am and there was a point where I thought why on earth would God let me feel like this. Why was I being punished, why didn't He love me.

I was giving in to these dreadful thoughts and blaming God for the way I was feeling. It was terrible - as soon as something was looking good, there would be some sort of problem and my first thought was always, God, why are you doing this to me? 

Friends, I'm here to tell you that when God revealed Himself through small answers to prayer - I realised that the person who was turning me against my Lord and Saviour, was the devil himself. He (the devil) saw how vulnerable I was and took his chance to sneak his way into my heart/mind.

Hillsong brought out a beautiful song called "Not Today" and the first time I heard it, it felt as if God pulled me to the side and was telling me that hey Sarah, no matter what, I love you and I want you to know that no matter how far you drift - you'll always find your way back. It's so beautiful that God has defeated the devil, got you wrapped in both arms and eliminates fear.

I stand on Jesus' name. So with that being said;

Let the devil know not today.

Sorry for the short post, until next time X

LET THE DEVIL KNOW NOT TODAY

Saturday, 21 October 2017

from a girl who's never needed God more


If you've been keeping up with my blog at all (slightly my fault, I haven't been updating), you would know that the past few months have been a little tough. It's been a whirlwind of emotions and not really being confident in who I am and there was a point where I thought why on earth would God let me feel like this. Why was I being punished, why didn't He love me.

I was giving in to these dreadful thoughts and blaming God for the way I was feeling. It was terrible - as soon as something was looking good, there would be some sort of problem and my first thought was always, God, why are you doing this to me? 

Friends, I'm here to tell you that when God revealed Himself through small answers to prayer - I realised that the person who was turning me against my Lord and Saviour, was the devil himself. He (the devil) saw how vulnerable I was and took his chance to sneak his way into my heart/mind.

Hillsong brought out a beautiful song called "Not Today" and the first time I heard it, it felt as if God pulled me to the side and was telling me that hey Sarah, no matter what, I love you and I want you to know that no matter how far you drift - you'll always find your way back. It's so beautiful that God has defeated the devil, got you wrapped in both arms and eliminates fear.

I stand on Jesus' name. So with that being said;

Let the devil know not today.

Sorry for the short post, until next time X

A couple of months ago, I was asked to write an open letter to anyone I wanted on my friends blog - Lavinia Elizabeth. I wrote the letter and sent it through to her and she loved it. As you might be able to tell, I haven't posted in over a month and that's purely because I had nothing to write about. I wanted every single word on my blog to be words of God, so I didn't want to force anything. I feel like God's nudging me to re-post this letter on my blog. As if He's telling me that there's someone who needs to hear what I have to say. So with that in mind, I hope you enjoy this letter - it's all for you.

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When Lavinia asked me to write an open letter to anyone I wanted, I was stuck. I had a fear that any letter I wrote would be way too straight forward, and although it's meant to be an 'anonymous' letter, I worried the person I was writing to would pick it up immediately. Not too sure why I was so scared, but I was. Then I had the bright idea that I'd just write an open letter to you - yeah you, reading this. Don't worry, I'm not going to put you on the spot or pull you out of the crowd to do some ridiculous act - which actually happened to me once when I went to the circus but that's irrelevant. Anyways, this one goes out to you - so get comfy because I have something to tell you.


To you,

I'm not quite sure how to start this letter. For someone who usually has so many things to say, I’m finally lost for words. My room is completely quiet besides the tapping of my computer keys because, despite having nothing to say, I’m still typing. I’m typing in hopes of coming up with the most beautiful metaphor. I’m thinking that maybe if I just keep typing words that come to my mind, they’ll create a dramatic storyline. Truth is, I have no interesting story to write about. So I'm just going to be honest.

Life. Such a beautiful yet chaotic thing. When God created the world I'm sure He didn't expect it to turn out the way it did. He created it with such love and detail, and when Eve took a bite of that apple, His perfect image came to a sudden holt as sin slowly slithered into the world. Yet despite all this, God still saw His creation as beautiful, and still wanted to take care of it. Another thing is that God's all knowing and He probably already knew that Eve was going to take a bite of that apple wayyyy before she did it and it baffles me to this day how He just sat back and let it happen but at the same time, God never gives you something you can't handle.

Way before Eve took a bite of that apple and both her and Adam were banished from the garden, God had already provided them with everything they needed to survive when He created the universe. He supplied food, clothing and each other so when they started their new life, they could bare their own children and grow the human race (which is you and me, holla!) and look after the planet while they were at it. I mean, they had to work for it, but the resources were still there. Sure, God might not have been so stoked that Satan snaked (haha get it) his way into His world, but God, in His mercy, had a wonderful plan to deal with sin.

So long story short;

We all make mistakes, it's inevitable. But let me tell you one thing. No matter how big your mistake/problem may seem, just remember that your God is wayyyy bigger. He's always going to be holding you and guiding you and when you feel alone, remember He's walking right there alongside you. He loves you with all of His heart and cares for you deeply. He's already forgiven you because believe it or not, He already knows what's going to happen in the future, but just like with Adam and Eve, in His mercy, He has a wonderful plan.

My old high school's bible verse that they lived by was Jeremiah 29:11 and it ties in perfectly with this post. The Lord was speaking to Jeremiah;


"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord.
'Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you.
Plans to give you a hope and a future.'"

Huh, guess I had a lot more to say than I thought.

Until next time X

THIS ONE GOES OUT TO YOU

Monday, 11 September 2017

A couple of months ago, I was asked to write an open letter to anyone I wanted on my friends blog - Lavinia Elizabeth. I wrote the letter and sent it through to her and she loved it. As you might be able to tell, I haven't posted in over a month and that's purely because I had nothing to write about. I wanted every single word on my blog to be words of God, so I didn't want to force anything. I feel like God's nudging me to re-post this letter on my blog. As if He's telling me that there's someone who needs to hear what I have to say. So with that in mind, I hope you enjoy this letter - it's all for you.

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When Lavinia asked me to write an open letter to anyone I wanted, I was stuck. I had a fear that any letter I wrote would be way too straight forward, and although it's meant to be an 'anonymous' letter, I worried the person I was writing to would pick it up immediately. Not too sure why I was so scared, but I was. Then I had the bright idea that I'd just write an open letter to you - yeah you, reading this. Don't worry, I'm not going to put you on the spot or pull you out of the crowd to do some ridiculous act - which actually happened to me once when I went to the circus but that's irrelevant. Anyways, this one goes out to you - so get comfy because I have something to tell you.


To you,

I'm not quite sure how to start this letter. For someone who usually has so many things to say, I’m finally lost for words. My room is completely quiet besides the tapping of my computer keys because, despite having nothing to say, I’m still typing. I’m typing in hopes of coming up with the most beautiful metaphor. I’m thinking that maybe if I just keep typing words that come to my mind, they’ll create a dramatic storyline. Truth is, I have no interesting story to write about. So I'm just going to be honest.

Life. Such a beautiful yet chaotic thing. When God created the world I'm sure He didn't expect it to turn out the way it did. He created it with such love and detail, and when Eve took a bite of that apple, His perfect image came to a sudden holt as sin slowly slithered into the world. Yet despite all this, God still saw His creation as beautiful, and still wanted to take care of it. Another thing is that God's all knowing and He probably already knew that Eve was going to take a bite of that apple wayyyy before she did it and it baffles me to this day how He just sat back and let it happen but at the same time, God never gives you something you can't handle.

Way before Eve took a bite of that apple and both her and Adam were banished from the garden, God had already provided them with everything they needed to survive when He created the universe. He supplied food, clothing and each other so when they started their new life, they could bare their own children and grow the human race (which is you and me, holla!) and look after the planet while they were at it. I mean, they had to work for it, but the resources were still there. Sure, God might not have been so stoked that Satan snaked (haha get it) his way into His world, but God, in His mercy, had a wonderful plan to deal with sin.

So long story short;

We all make mistakes, it's inevitable. But let me tell you one thing. No matter how big your mistake/problem may seem, just remember that your God is wayyyy bigger. He's always going to be holding you and guiding you and when you feel alone, remember He's walking right there alongside you. He loves you with all of His heart and cares for you deeply. He's already forgiven you because believe it or not, He already knows what's going to happen in the future, but just like with Adam and Eve, in His mercy, He has a wonderful plan.

My old high school's bible verse that they lived by was Jeremiah 29:11 and it ties in perfectly with this post. The Lord was speaking to Jeremiah;


"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord.
'Plans to prosper you, and not to harm you.
Plans to give you a hope and a future.'"

Huh, guess I had a lot more to say than I thought.

Until next time X



The one thing I love about God, is that you never know what He's going to do next. You're constantly stuck in this place of surprise. You never know how and when He's going to show himself to you - most of the time, it's in the most unexpected place/time. Whether it's through a simple trip to Christchurch, or by the year 11 and 12 music class.

I walked into the classroom yesterday and was welcomed by a beautiful melody. The teacher spotted me and asked if I wanted to hear more. Obviously I said yes and then they proceeded to sing one of my favourite songs, Kia Kaha. As they began to sing the song, all I felt was tired. After a hard night of losing a friend and just not feeling on top of the world, I guess you could say I didn't want to be there. But as the song progressed, I found myself being moved. Not in the sense that my body was physically moving, but more like I found my soul slowly starting to come alive - weird huh?

As the song built, I really honestly wanted to cry. Instead of hearing students singing such a beautiful song, it sounded more like the voice of God;

Kia kaha
Kia maia 
Kia manawanui 

Be strong
Be steadfast 
Be willing

It felt as if God's arms were wrapped around me and in that moment, in that classroom, all I could hear was Him, and that's all I wanted. God is more than enough for me and I'm constantly grateful for the unexpected.

Who knew that after a pretty hard night, coming into my work place the next day -- God would be show up. If anything, it reminded me that God is everywhere, and if you've never heard from Him, my number one tip is to stay aware. Because you don't know who/how/when. You don't know who He's going to talk to you through, you don't know how He's going to do it, and you most definitely don't know when.

So keep your head up and remember God has got your back - there's hope in the unexpected.


THE UNEXPECTED

Thursday, 27 July 2017



The one thing I love about God, is that you never know what He's going to do next. You're constantly stuck in this place of surprise. You never know how and when He's going to show himself to you - most of the time, it's in the most unexpected place/time. Whether it's through a simple trip to Christchurch, or by the year 11 and 12 music class.

I walked into the classroom yesterday and was welcomed by a beautiful melody. The teacher spotted me and asked if I wanted to hear more. Obviously I said yes and then they proceeded to sing one of my favourite songs, Kia Kaha. As they began to sing the song, all I felt was tired. After a hard night of losing a friend and just not feeling on top of the world, I guess you could say I didn't want to be there. But as the song progressed, I found myself being moved. Not in the sense that my body was physically moving, but more like I found my soul slowly starting to come alive - weird huh?

As the song built, I really honestly wanted to cry. Instead of hearing students singing such a beautiful song, it sounded more like the voice of God;

Kia kaha
Kia maia 
Kia manawanui 

Be strong
Be steadfast 
Be willing

It felt as if God's arms were wrapped around me and in that moment, in that classroom, all I could hear was Him, and that's all I wanted. God is more than enough for me and I'm constantly grateful for the unexpected.

Who knew that after a pretty hard night, coming into my work place the next day -- God would be show up. If anything, it reminded me that God is everywhere, and if you've never heard from Him, my number one tip is to stay aware. Because you don't know who/how/when. You don't know who He's going to talk to you through, you don't know how He's going to do it, and you most definitely don't know when.

So keep your head up and remember God has got your back - there's hope in the unexpected.


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